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I'm scared.

"your work is utterly beautiful"

Who needs a raging party when you've got grass to lay on and a boy's chest to rest your head against? and countless things to talk about..? look at your shoes , how do they feel?

chuck taylor

To have a soul is to have thoughts, feelings and sense. I wonder if Chuck Taylor can feel the different levels of pressure left on his soul by the flesh coulored thing we call feet. I wonder if Chuck Taylor thinks to himself, “Man I need to be washed.” or “Wow, her feet stink..!”. I wonder if Chuck Taylor knows the difference between the taste of socks and skin, he does have a tongue after all.I wonder if Chuck Taylor knows that every day I sink my feet into the canvas fabric in which he is made, I feel comfort, warmth and completely myself.

sleepless in kelowna

sleeping naked is the best, just saying, any who. I cant fall asleep i dont know exactly why but i just cant ,i really think logan should reply to my message and let me know if he is up to my proposal!! I feel like i should probably go to the place where dreams are made right about now being as though i have a physics test tomorrow :S i havent been to that class for so long, i officially hate the consequences of skipping, so after this year is over i will make a vow to myself and most likely jackie to not skip unless mandatory emergency has occurred so thats my plan but for the time being im hoping to skip as least i can for the last week other than dance of course , how could i not ? its the last day of school last block , zaz wont care haha i hope she wont , night kelowna....... thanks for listening to my blabber fest

millipedes are gross

Today i have realized exactly what I need in life , and that need, is absolutely nothing, I am oozing with happiness at the moment and I haven't felt this alive in a long time . Maybe the fact that today I was informed of the very well deserved B I have in physics , or quite possibly that Ben, single handedly has made everyday amazing for the past three and a half months , maybe that my mom and I aren't fighting as much, whatever it is , I feel accomplished, this is a feeling that I haven't experienced in mass amounts of time. I hope it sticks , like a wad of gum underneath your desk, I hope today is like every other day , I know that will not happen, but I can only hope.

millipedes are gross

urrgg homework!

So I have an essay that is overdue and I need to get it done for tomorrow because the student teacher will not be teaching us after this week, this is so bad , I feel so behind in school already and its only the beginning of the term, stupid Macbeth, why couldn't you leave me and stay where you belong, old english times where I don't understand a word you are saying. Worst part is, the teacher didn't even let us read the play, we got to watch the movie instead, which by default I paid no attention to. I really need to pick up my marks if i ever want to get my L, but that would take a miracle consisting of motivation of mass proportions being thrown at me from every angle possible. At this point I'm no longer aiming for university, however badass it is, my plan is to go to either douglas college or what ever school I can get into. There is only one possibility at me getting into a university though and that would be...(drum roll please..) Emily Carr University of Art and Design, but the chances of that are slim to none, always worth dreaming for though. Anyways i might sit here for a bit and ponder the reasons of why i can't write for my essay like i can for my blog, goodnight .

My brave relative! What a worthy man!- King Duncan

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AHH my sister is annoying me , she wont tell me what happened in one tree hill haha oh well , what can you do ? life goes on i guess, soo my life is surprisingly going super smooth right now, and i think i know why.. its funny how things work , i just cant wait any longer for summer and i really want the job at the grand, soo badly ! who knows what will come out of this, but lets hope a pot full of gold and maybe even a little leprechaun :P ugh i have missed just venting to my blog, and i have had wireless for a while now so i have no reason not to , anyways thanks for listening blogspot.com gotta love ya , i'm out

hurt

fuck this, i hate drama , it is a waste of my time and my life. I thought i saw someone different in you , a nice sweet person but i was proven wrong. I know you think i've changed but the real truth is I just never realized how one day someone could be so kind and warm hearted, than the next, do something I could never imagine or fathom doing, dont get me wrong , i still like hanging with you and you are a fun friend but i truthfully doubt i will ever gain the trust i had for you back ever again. it's sad really and i wish it was different, but it isnt and now we have to plow through this. I love him, you can't take that away but I'm still here same old person i was.... lets figure this out .... please?