i loved you

I read back on the old times, trapped in the box under my bed, they will stay there forever as will you , in my heart. A first love may be hard to come by for some , but for me it was easy. You made it easy , you made it fun , you made it exciting, but now all that is left is the fear that we will no longer speak , no longer sing together, no longer smile at each other. However much i would love to share moments of love with you , i would also like to share moments of truth, which I found our relationship didn't have much of. You are an amazing person, and you will always hold a dear place in my heart, thank you for being my first, I would've never wanted to share such a life changing moment with anyone but you. I love you dearly, I just cannot stay with you, I want to but I cannot, it's difficult and sad but way to hard for anyone but myself to understand.

Benjamin Wayland MacKenzie,

you will always be my favourite mistake.

lost..

start.

finish?

sitting here with my babe love you :)

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I'm scared.

"your work is utterly beautiful"

Who needs a raging party when you've got grass to lay on and a boy's chest to rest your head against? and countless things to talk about..? look at your shoes , how do they feel?

chuck taylor

To have a soul is to have thoughts, feelings and sense. I wonder if Chuck Taylor can feel the different levels of pressure left on his soul by the flesh coulored thing we call feet. I wonder if Chuck Taylor thinks to himself, “Man I need to be washed.” or “Wow, her feet stink..!”. I wonder if Chuck Taylor knows the difference between the taste of socks and skin, he does have a tongue after all.I wonder if Chuck Taylor knows that every day I sink my feet into the canvas fabric in which he is made, I feel comfort, warmth and completely myself.

sleepless in kelowna

sleeping naked is the best, just saying, any who. I cant fall asleep i dont know exactly why but i just cant ,i really think logan should reply to my message and let me know if he is up to my proposal!! I feel like i should probably go to the place where dreams are made right about now being as though i have a physics test tomorrow :S i havent been to that class for so long, i officially hate the consequences of skipping, so after this year is over i will make a vow to myself and most likely jackie to not skip unless mandatory emergency has occurred so thats my plan but for the time being im hoping to skip as least i can for the last week other than dance of course , how could i not ? its the last day of school last block , zaz wont care haha i hope she wont , night kelowna....... thanks for listening to my blabber fest

millipedes are gross

Today i have realized exactly what I need in life , and that need, is absolutely nothing, I am oozing with happiness at the moment and I haven't felt this alive in a long time . Maybe the fact that today I was informed of the very well deserved B I have in physics , or quite possibly that Ben, single handedly has made everyday amazing for the past three and a half months , maybe that my mom and I aren't fighting as much, whatever it is , I feel accomplished, this is a feeling that I haven't experienced in mass amounts of time. I hope it sticks , like a wad of gum underneath your desk, I hope today is like every other day , I know that will not happen, but I can only hope.

millipedes are gross