lost..

start.

finish?

sitting here with my babe love you :)

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I'm scared.

"your work is utterly beautiful"

Who needs a raging party when you've got grass to lay on and a boy's chest to rest your head against? and countless things to talk about..? look at your shoes , how do they feel?

chuck taylor

To have a soul is to have thoughts, feelings and sense. I wonder if Chuck Taylor can feel the different levels of pressure left on his soul by the flesh coulored thing we call feet. I wonder if Chuck Taylor thinks to himself, “Man I need to be washed.” or “Wow, her feet stink..!”. I wonder if Chuck Taylor knows the difference between the taste of socks and skin, he does have a tongue after all.I wonder if Chuck Taylor knows that every day I sink my feet into the canvas fabric in which he is made, I feel comfort, warmth and completely myself.

sleepless in kelowna

sleeping naked is the best, just saying, any who. I cant fall asleep i dont know exactly why but i just cant ,i really think logan should reply to my message and let me know if he is up to my proposal!! I feel like i should probably go to the place where dreams are made right about now being as though i have a physics test tomorrow :S i havent been to that class for so long, i officially hate the consequences of skipping, so after this year is over i will make a vow to myself and most likely jackie to not skip unless mandatory emergency has occurred so thats my plan but for the time being im hoping to skip as least i can for the last week other than dance of course , how could i not ? its the last day of school last block , zaz wont care haha i hope she wont , night kelowna....... thanks for listening to my blabber fest

millipedes are gross

Today i have realized exactly what I need in life , and that need, is absolutely nothing, I am oozing with happiness at the moment and I haven't felt this alive in a long time . Maybe the fact that today I was informed of the very well deserved B I have in physics , or quite possibly that Ben, single handedly has made everyday amazing for the past three and a half months , maybe that my mom and I aren't fighting as much, whatever it is , I feel accomplished, this is a feeling that I haven't experienced in mass amounts of time. I hope it sticks , like a wad of gum underneath your desk, I hope today is like every other day , I know that will not happen, but I can only hope.

millipedes are gross

urrgg homework!

So I have an essay that is overdue and I need to get it done for tomorrow because the student teacher will not be teaching us after this week, this is so bad , I feel so behind in school already and its only the beginning of the term, stupid Macbeth, why couldn't you leave me and stay where you belong, old english times where I don't understand a word you are saying. Worst part is, the teacher didn't even let us read the play, we got to watch the movie instead, which by default I paid no attention to. I really need to pick up my marks if i ever want to get my L, but that would take a miracle consisting of motivation of mass proportions being thrown at me from every angle possible. At this point I'm no longer aiming for university, however badass it is, my plan is to go to either douglas college or what ever school I can get into. There is only one possibility at me getting into a university though and that would be...(drum roll please..) Emily Carr University of Art and Design, but the chances of that are slim to none, always worth dreaming for though. Anyways i might sit here for a bit and ponder the reasons of why i can't write for my essay like i can for my blog, goodnight .

My brave relative! What a worthy man!- King Duncan

blah blah blah

AHH my sister is annoying me , she wont tell me what happened in one tree hill haha oh well , what can you do ? life goes on i guess, soo my life is surprisingly going super smooth right now, and i think i know why.. its funny how things work , i just cant wait any longer for summer and i really want the job at the grand, soo badly ! who knows what will come out of this, but lets hope a pot full of gold and maybe even a little leprechaun :P ugh i have missed just venting to my blog, and i have had wireless for a while now so i have no reason not to , anyways thanks for listening blogspot.com gotta love ya , i'm out

hurt

fuck this, i hate drama , it is a waste of my time and my life. I thought i saw someone different in you , a nice sweet person but i was proven wrong. I know you think i've changed but the real truth is I just never realized how one day someone could be so kind and warm hearted, than the next, do something I could never imagine or fathom doing, dont get me wrong , i still like hanging with you and you are a fun friend but i truthfully doubt i will ever gain the trust i had for you back ever again. it's sad really and i wish it was different, but it isnt and now we have to plow through this. I love him, you can't take that away but I'm still here same old person i was.... lets figure this out .... please?

Romeo . please take me away ♥

"Laughter is the shortest distance between two people."

-Victor Borge

You make me laugh, you make me feel special, but most of all you make me feel loved. I love you for it.

Teen love, what is that anyways? My opinion: if it's love, it's love. To tell you the truth I'm getting

butterflies just thinking about you. You overwhelm my thoughts constantly. I thought that saying it

would be really hard but your smile made it easy. I thought i would never be forgiven but you forgave me.

Hope for the best :)

I love you.

break-up sex? I THINK NOT!

It's a difficult decision, you complete the action, but regret it within minutes of doing it. Life. Live life with no regrets. Please ? Just do it , screw what people think is "the best" for you ! What you think is the best for you, is what is the best for you, give it a chance. Clina I don't know how you do it, persuasive and very good at making complete sense of a fucked up situation. Respect. True friends will always be there. Understanding. Lost somewhere, only to be found soon, I hope. MEGWIG loves you and you should know that, she just feels like she needs to find her own way sometimes. A path of my own, advice along the way never hurts but a path all to myself. AHH, refreshing. Decision. I have made up my mind. Yes, the answer is yes.

remember me?

sometimes i wonder what it would be like if i were to die. what would be missing in my friends lives ? would people cry over my death ? would there be heartache ? would i be missed, im wondering why this topic even came to my mind but i think i might know why ...

C.O.A

8:57:57...................6:45:00

Annalise.. the room

Sometimes sitting in my room by myself, is the only escape that works, well actually all of the time it's the only escape. Music playing, thoughts running, tears rolling, laughter, every feeling of my being has been presented to my room. Annalise has seen me at my best, my worst, my prettiest and my ugliest, she has seen me in pain, physically and mentally. She, who may change plenty, is always there for me. When without a friend or with many, Annalise will always be there to harbour my emotions. The walls surrounding me are my story and although they may be blank, they carry the painting of my life. When alone in my room, I'm safe, away from any boy who breaks my heart, any friend who stabs me in the back, any fear I might have, I can hide from. Annalise gives me the comfort I need to confront my fears, she gives me the support I need to help a friend, she helps me to realize just how important living your life to the fullest really is. Annalise is my sanctuary for thoughts, my oasis for life. I love my room.

A Question For A Loved One

I want to know what your blog is about, who it's about, I want to be in your mind, I want to know how to ask, but I don't know if its a touchy subject, I feel like you would have already told me, but the things you have to say seem new to me, if you ever feel like you need to talk, I'm always here..... love you <3

IPOD

IPODS are the greatest invention ever, until the randomly freeze on you that is!
I'm off to L.A. in 5 days and if I don't have my IPOD I don't know what I will do!

Meaghan.Grace.Clark

Meaghan Clark is one of those friends you can always rely on if you need a laugh, she makes my stomach hurt like no one else and i believe in her german ways, I don't believe I would be able to count the amount of inside jokes we share, I hope to cherish Meaghan and her dog James for ever and ever, even if her other dog James has to come along too. I Love You Meaghan Clark , this is not Deputy Donohue writing this blog btw, just in case you thought it was , i don't love you in that (sexual) way, I love you like a german citizen loves a Nazi! See you in dance my one german love!
Love your BGF Meg <3

midnight madness

meaghan is a crazy vageena ............just sayin'

Wondering....

Why is it that parents have to be so unreasonable?
Lifesavers, a good program, great people, confidence booster, outlet, volunteering..
So why exactly won't my parents let me go to it?
I really need to apologize to Logan , really need to, and it would be a whole lot better if it wasn't over text this time.
I don't know how he feels about the break-up but to tell you the truth , how he feels about me doesn't matter any more... I need closure and he deserves an apology ....
To top it off i tried to make a point to my dad questioning him on why I'm not allowed to help other people out but how he allowed me to hang out with whoever I want to during the Christmas break. So that apology that is desperately needed will have to wait, sorry Logan.
And also I have to give thank-yous and Kudos to my friends but Christina and Jackie especially , you have been there when i needed you the most through this drama filled 2 months of mine..

you don't realize who your true friends are until the cry with you and hold you until you feel better, thanks Jackie for the oreos, you don't realize the wonders they can do to a broken heart
you also begin to realize how much you appreciate the newly formed relationship with an acquaintance, when all of a sudden as if you have known each other forever, you can call them at 2 in the morning,bawling your eyes out just to ask a simple question such as, I need someone to talk to, can you be that someone? Thank -you Christina, you are truly my lifesaver :)