THE LAKE

So i really haven't written in forever, I'm just in the writing mood today though. I'm sitting somewhere i never really thought i would be sitting. Its a place I would've never thought of until that is, I moved out to Lake Louise Alberta. As i type my behind is heavily placed on the cushioned curved bench above the front desk at the chateau lake louse, i need to do this more often , time alone is good time, my company keeps me happy, the chitter chatter of mostly asians fills my head and when usually i repel that sound, today i embrace it. i don't really know why, i just am my stomach is getting hungry though which is unfortunate, I'm so glad to be able to live here, really even though the altitude is really effecting how my white blood cells are functioning to fight off infection. fucking colds...me and brett keep giving it to each other too. i think i like him , he kissed me in public today AWK i just didn't know what to do i felt awkward because i wasn't expecting it and i really don't know what his thoughts are.. are we together or just FWB because either way I'm down but i'd kinda like to know, i just hate putting the label on it but as melissa said, "whatever label you do or don't put on it , there is always a relationship regardless of what it is you are doing"but yeah its fun for sure and i love hanging out with him so we will see where things go, no pressure, just live. This place sometimes makes me feel stuck but its such a great opportunity for things this is just my start and i will hopefully be writing more and more as my journeys become thicker. Im most likely going to LA in April if i can get the time off so I'm crossing my fingers! I would love to go back and visit the place my awkward teen years ever so "gracefully" caressed ! Im really hungry and i wish i had a boyfriend that would bring me food while i write. I've decided i need to document more of this and maybe it will help me to appreciate where i live more. I mean as i look around i kind of try and take it all in. this place is stunning, so extravagant.